Life Lately

Life Lately

I had a good phase of life in the last month or so. Everything was going right, I was making time for my business ventures, doing well at work, doing well in all my relationships. I have hit a wall. The full-time work life, and meetings, and house responsibilities, and chores, and relationships, and exercise and this new business venture has pulled me all different ways where I feel like most areas of my life are drooping as I trudge through life. Even at work I seem to be slacking more as they hand me more and more on my plate where I just feel I am ready to tap out. I also just mowed the grass a week ago and it has already grown up to needing a cut again. AFTER A WEEK.

The worst part? This part of my life will be one with the least number of responsibilities. In a month or two I will be a dog owner. A new challenge to throw my life. On top of all the others.

My money situation has been less than pleasant too as I continue to drop and drop and drop. The markets are in a poor state right now.

I just feel distracted. Maybe it’s the post vacation brain fog but I think for a couple of weeks now it has been here where I don’t set up my priorities well and it has entered my life in several different areas.

One specific area is diet and exercise. I have been gaining weight back at an alarming rate and it is unfortunate because of how much work I did back in January to put it off as much as possible. Long runs should not be just for training for marathons. It should be part of your weekly exercise routine. After a run I would experience a clear head for most of the day after my runs. No anxiety. No stress. Just pure relaxation. And ENERGY. I lost 25 pounds in six months, but I gained 15 of it back in five months. The weight gain has been a big problem.

About this time last year, I was experiencing some harsh anxiety issues. It was with me at work, it was with me at home, and I worked through it with a few different therapists, self-work, and just time to deal with those issues. There is a part of psychology called the anniversary effect where issues you had in the past can show up again around the same time as its anniversary. I can feel it several times over the last few days but typically it is short lived.

I went on my first Disney cruise which was incredible to see. It was my first time on a ship where I have most of my memories of. It was also my first discounted vacation from being a travel agent that sells these types of vacations and now I understand why they do those discounted rates. I was a little bit unknowledgeable about Disney Cruise Line beforehand but after I got off, I have a new appreciation and knowledge of this product. It was a great experience. It makes me even sadder to go back to normal life.

I feel like this whole year has zoomed by where I haven’t been able to get a grasp on life. I don’t remember a weekend where I stayed at home and enjoyed some activities there. It has been issue after issue, event after event.  Blessed enough to go on three vacations so far this year. Got to see my baby niece and am now transitioning into being a homeowner. The year has brought blessings and hardship, but I am still pushing through all and I can’t wait to see what the rest of the year brings.